Monday, October 26, 2009

2 years

I have been struggling with OCD and depression for 2 years and one day, Perry Stone came to my church... I was on camera that day and I wasn't doing too good. Have you ever had that devistation where you felt like you were going to die right where you are at? I have cried and prayed for 2 years and I have had little answers... but that night was an answer I'll never forget! It was in the end of the service where Perry Stone asked if there was anyone who thought that if it was their last night on earth, would they know they were going to heaven... A lady came up to me and took my hand and asked me. I tore off my headphones and walked up there with her. they started praying for me and then I started speaking in tounges! I was crying and smiling at the same time and Perry spoke once more,"There is someone here on medication, i don't know who this is for but you're on medication and that is one of the reasons you can't feel God, you feel like God has left you, God has not left you, it is just a natural reaction in the body to the medication. God wants you to know that there is nothing wrong with you."
One of the ladies asked if I was on meds and I siad yes!GOD HAD FREED ME THAT NIGHT! and the most awesomr thing about it was that, I recorded the whole sermon on my ipod, everything even the altar call! I was soooooooooo happy! To everyone out there who is struggling, remember, God keeps his promise and never lose faith in him, there are times when he leads you through storms but he is always with you, he sees ur tears and listens to ur prayers but do not harden your heart when he answers you.